10:44

I'm going crazy trying to block out the thoughts in my head
I'm singing along to lyrics
trying to keep ahead
trying to block it all out
saying other things
typing this
looking at tattoos
looking at pictures
going on tumblr
pinterest
oh look this is so pretty.
anything
i want that
anything
this is really good
anything
anything
anything
anything
anything
anything
anything
anything
anything
no
im not going to cry
im not going to cry
i like this song
i like this song
i really like this song
breathe
ok
ur ok
something will happen
intervention
maybe
or maybe
this is it
is this it
is this it
is this it
am i suppose to be ok with it
no this is not a rhetorical question
am i failing
at this
life
is this really
it
is this
shit
the funeral is playing
should i change?
i don't know if listening to sad songs is a good idea
i like this song
though


i like this song

i stopped for too long

should i continue

i shouldn't
i can't cry
this is stupid

is this it
am i suppose to make something out of this
is this the rut

because i don't want it
i want out
i want out

i want out.

can i leave
can i go some place else
can i do anything else
can i be anywhere else
please.

i want out


but
I'm here.